Breathing in without ever breathing out.

It seems that life has slown down tremendously.  I am not sure if time is actually moving forward or if I am stuck living the same day over and over.  Each day I wake up and then fall back asleep some time later.  Every day seems like wasted time with next to none personal endeavors taken on.

I've no money and that is just made worse by the fact that I have no job.  It is so extremely difficult to find any sort of work around here....  For you all who read this blog regularly, you know that I have pretty much been on the job search for a good seven months now.  That is just great.

I play video games in my spare time to help me forget how lax in excitement my life is.

I rearranged all of the furniture in my bed room today.  It took me around five hours to do.  I like it this way.  My room look neat and clean for once.  Yay greatest personal achievement in months is that I cleaned my room and optimized the location of the little amount of furniture I own. 

I haven't written a new song since the middle of January.  It is kind of sad to realize that you really are not meant to do what you've told yourself you are in love with for so long.  If I was meant to be a musician than I would be more driven to accomplish just that.  Yet I am so impatient and so quick to temper when it comes to the guitar.  Not to mention I sold my only amp power cord with my Bass half stack.  Now I am stuck with no amp to play with.... Fun fun fun...

I had to cancel both of my shows this month.. Even more reason to believe I have been living a lie.

At least I have friends.. Oh wait they all live hours away...
At least I am alive... with constant migraines and never eating full meals...
I complain a lot... I used to think I was strong...

Now I just sound plain Emo...

Started to make another blog, but then lost interest.  Oh well...

I really have nothing good to say to you because I really have not done or experience anything or worth lately.. I come back from Northern California and just feel out of place... I would go back in a heartbeat...

Hope you enjoyed my bitch session....

Duces...

Damn right.. I iz hood wit et.
-CamBam