Breathing in without ever breathing out.

It seems that life has slown down tremendously.  I am not sure if time is actually moving forward or if I am stuck living the same day over and over.  Each day I wake up and then fall back asleep some time later.  Every day seems like wasted time with next to none personal endeavors taken on.

I've no money and that is just made worse by the fact that I have no job.  It is so extremely difficult to find any sort of work around here....  For you all who read this blog regularly, you know that I have pretty much been on the job search for a good seven months now.  That is just great.

I play video games in my spare time to help me forget how lax in excitement my life is.

I rearranged all of the furniture in my bed room today.  It took me around five hours to do.  I like it this way.  My room look neat and clean for once.  Yay greatest personal achievement in months is that I cleaned my room and optimized the location of the little amount of furniture I own. 

I haven't written a new song since the middle of January.  It is kind of sad to realize that you really are not meant to do what you've told yourself you are in love with for so long.  If I was meant to be a musician than I would be more driven to accomplish just that.  Yet I am so impatient and so quick to temper when it comes to the guitar.  Not to mention I sold my only amp power cord with my Bass half stack.  Now I am stuck with no amp to play with.... Fun fun fun...

I had to cancel both of my shows this month.. Even more reason to believe I have been living a lie.

At least I have friends.. Oh wait they all live hours away...
At least I am alive... with constant migraines and never eating full meals...
I complain a lot... I used to think I was strong...

Now I just sound plain Emo...

Started to make another blog, but then lost interest.  Oh well...

I really have nothing good to say to you because I really have not done or experience anything or worth lately.. I come back from Northern California and just feel out of place... I would go back in a heartbeat...

Hope you enjoyed my bitch session....

Duces...

Damn right.. I iz hood wit et.
-CamBam 

Think about this...

"Not until after his death was Shakespeare considered the greatest playwright and poet in the history of the English language."
-http://www.biographyshelf.com/william_shakespeare_biography.html

Wake Up, Gorgeous...

The live demo that was recorded at The Wire is now on my band myspace.  You can give it all a listen HERE!
I hope that you enjoy listening to it as much as I enjoyed performing it....

So I am sorry that I did not post by the end of the week.  I really didn't have access to the internet whenever I felt like writing... So yeah.. Not that anyone really reads these anyway... I mean no response whatsoever from the world at large.. The entire whole of the internet has forsaken me and left me alone.  I used to love getting your guys comments, but now I seem to have nothing witty worth saying for response.

Andrea Nicole McCarn... My new / old girlfriend.  That is right ladies and gentlemen.  I am again with Andrea.  Which is making my life a whole lot easier.  She really is an amazing person.  I couldn't ask for someone better to hold my hand as I am making my way into the real world as both a man and an artist.  Who knows to what end, but I am excited to see it all through...  She is also rather attractive :).....

 

(This is an old picture.. Her hair is now blue.)

Something actually kinda sad is that I have not sought to speak with Destiny at all... Last I heard she is moving back to Alabama... Oh well... I still care about her, but she is just not a good person... At all...

I also am selling live demos for $5.  If you would like one just let me know... We'll work something out.

Oh yeah in Geology again.... I don't like this class... It is so boring... Oh well.............
At least I don't have class tomorrow... I am going job hunting again... Yay me!

So that is that for today...
I hope you are living a life that you can be proud of!

Love ya!
-CamBam

Here we are once again...

I have found myself living a life that I am slowly becoming proud of.  I have spoken of that idea for quite a few different posts.

A lot has happened since you last read words I typed to format.  Of course that is the way it goes when I never post anything new for such a long amount of time.

I actually should be taking notes. I am in geology 101.  How fun... Every Monday and Wednesday from 1 PM to 2:15 PM, I find myself in this auditorium with around a hundred and fifty other kids.  It is not too hot or cold, but it is stadium seating and we are very close together.  I have been close to such parts of other people that I do not care to share the situations with you.  Just know that this is not my favorite part of the week.

I am out on the job search again.  I hate it so much.  It would be so much easier if there were just a place I could go to and they would let me know who was hiring and for what position.  I hate going door to door.  I feel like I am selling girl scout cookies, only it is my skills and experience... I mean; I would myself  prefer a box of Thin Mints.

My show at The Wire on the 24th went well.  I mean I could have done so much better, but such is life.  I will most likely be playing there again on the 21st of this month.  I also have a show coming up in San Dimas on the 27th.... Busy busy busy...

I was in Brentwood CA last weekend.  I met Andrea's mother and her friend Kayleigh.  They are such great people.  I wish I would have gotten the chance to spend more than a day and a half there.  I was supposed to get a new tattoo while I was there, but that sort of fell through.  I will get it next time.... Which will most likely be in March during spring break.  (The week of my birthday might I add..)

I have no internet at the house again.  I haven't decided if I am going to get it turned back on or just wait for something to come along.  I actually need it this semester.  All of my math homework is done online.  My critical thinking class requires me to print out a new assignment every week.  My geology class has weekly online quizes that I must take in a certain window of time.  You can imagine how difficult this can be when I have to go all the way to the school campus to find a free WiFi connection...  Lucky you guys, huh?

I am going to see Weatherbox this Thursday at The Wire.  They are actually pretty good.. The two songs that I have heard... It is more for Andrea than anything.  I am also picking up my live recording that was made on the 24th.  I will have it posted on my band Myspace this weekend.  I am going to my parents house for a day or two.  Just relax and such.

Oh OH OH!
I got a new guitar!  Her name is Cousette and she is beautiful!  I also got a new distortion pedal (the Digitech Grunge pedal) to go with her.  They make me feel like I can play electric guitar lol.  I could spend hours just with her, but recent events; such as Andrea and school, have prevented me from over doing it.  I am sure that the neighbors are happy that Andrea gets me to turn my amp down when I have the urge to try yet again to play "A Favor in House Atlantic" by Coheed and Cambria at eleven PM.  Oh but how I want to learn that song lol...

blah blah blah it's sideways...

A more artistic view::

 

She is an Ibanez ARX 320... Yeah be jealous.  I got her for $100.

OH... Go HERE and support a great cause!

Thanks for reading again! I try to post again before the week is out.

Peace and love!

-CamBam