What a long strange trip its been....

Oh my... There are so many things that I want to say yet so many things that I don't want to.
There is always the one side that is fine with the way things turned out and one side that is dying on the inside. I am afraid I am the latter but there is not a damn thing I can do about it.

I guess I just gotta put one foot in front of the other one and hope for the best.
I wear this smile cause I am tired of how I feel.

Am I okay?
No - fuck you...
I know you are just wondering how I am and are concerned by the look on my face.
Just leave me the fuck alone.  Life sucks and then you die.
Might as well make the most of it.